Happy Pride, Y’all
Yes, I know this is the last day of Pride, but June has been A LOT so I’m running late.
First of all, just for the Florida-ness of it all, I want to start by saying: GAY GAY GAY GAY GAY GAY GAY!!!!
Whew. Alright, that’s out of my system. Now onto the thoughts—not thots, please get your head out of the gutter.
EDIT: Just looked at my Penny Pizzazz screenshots in Chapter 10, and it’s clear this SimLit is 75% thirst traps. I’ll just meet you in the gutter.
Anyway, I am being a bit flippant because I am nowhere near as experienced talking about this part of myself as I am chatting about being a woman of color writing romantic fan-fiction. But I am trying with this incarnation of my writing to take moments and reflect.
I thought about titling this post: “Why Did I Make Vladislaus Straud a Queer King?” mainly because my journey with writing about Vlad’s sexuality has reflected my own. But that felt a bit ostentatious, and queer characters in my stories didn’t start with Vlad (Hello William!).
Alright, enough stalling.
I was in my thirties before I knew anything about being “pansexual.” Growing up, I knew I wasn’t bi, but I also knew I wasn’t straight, either. In my mind, my sexuality was more a list of things I was into, experiences I wanted to have, and personality traits. I never said any of this because being attracted to vibes didn’t seem like a real thing. Plus, much like the characters in my story, I wasn’t pressed about defining my sexuality. I just…was.
(Yes, now I realize this was a privilege for anyone who appears to have a lot of hetero-coded sexual experiences.)
One night, while having too much white wine with a lovely queer friend, they joked that my sexuality was “a duke with reasons.” It didn’t matter what they were so long as they were a morally grey genius with good fashion sense and a dark sense of humor who maybe could crush the world in their hands.
I laughed but was also like: actually, yes, I am attracted to vibes. Is that a thing?
Turns out, yes.
Fast forward to this incarnation of Vlad in The Strauds. Even in BBD, I didn’t think of Vlad as straight. He was attracted to Alice because she had enough godlike power to grind his bones to dust, and she didn’t put up with anybody’s shit (least of all his). But this time around, I wanted to make that explicit. I also wanted a character who, like me, was in what appeared to be a cis relationship because that’s the space I’m navigating.
I’m also playing around with masculinity in this story—where does the toxic part begin and end? Can you get deep patriarchy out of your bones? What if your parents were queer sex-positive vampires with raging bloodlust and no sense of boundaries?
Honestly, that’s probably a whole other post, lol.
Anyway, that’s what I got to say today! Enjoy this little bonus shot from Morgyn and William (you’ll get to hang with them more in Chapter 11). I’m looking forward to having more to say about Alice and Penny and others (Anastasia could probably get an entire essay on her own) as plot points unfold, but for now, I’ll keep it, mum, because—spoilers.
Happy Pride <3
Group Pose 10 by Aolinis
Happy Pride by Katverse
Happy Pride Month by Clumsyalien
On Alice – Sims Pride Collection Sparkle Dress by DarkNighTt
On Penny – Sims Pride Collection Fringe Top by DarkNighTt
On Caleb – Sims Pride Collection Striped Tank Top by DarkNighTt
On Anastasia – Pride Collection Skirt 1 by Viy Sims
On Bella – Pride Collection Dress II by Viy Sims
On Vlad – Pride Collection Dress I by Viy Sims